It Wasn’t “Just Anxiety”: Recognizing the Signs of Postpartum Trauma
When the Words Don’t Fit
You’re not sleeping. You cry unexpectedly. Your chest tightens like you just ran a mile. Your thoughts loop endlessly on what-ifs. Everyone nods and says, "Sounds like anxiety." But what if that’s not it? What if you’re having a completely normal response to an abnormal experience—and nobody told you there was a name for it?
Welcome to the silent epidemic of postpartum trauma. Where the language we’ve been handed—"baby blues," "adjustment period," "postpartum anxiety"—misses the mark. Misses you.
Trauma Isn’t Just a Flashback Thing
Here’s the thing: postpartum PTSD doesn’t always look like war movies or car crashes. It can look like panicking when your baby cries. Avoiding the OB’s office. Feeling nothing when you hold your child—and then hating yourself for it.
Postpartum trauma is not rare. It’s just rarely named. The shame keeps us quiet. The system keeps us unseen. And we’re left trying to fit into a box labeled "anxiety" when our whole body is screaming something else.
Anxiety vs. Trauma: Let’s Break It Down
Postpartum anxiety can look like constant worry, racing thoughts, sleep trouble. But trauma? Trauma hijacks your body. It’s the memory of the birth playing on loop, the flinch when you smell antiseptic, the dread that spikes when your baby coughs.
Anxiety is fear about what might happen.
Trauma is fear from what did happen (or almost did).
You don’t need to "earn" a trauma diagnosis by having an emergency C-section or NICU stay. If your body felt unsafe, if your experience felt out of control—that’s enough. That’s valid.
Your Body is the First to Know
Your body doesn’t lie. While your brain scrambles for an explanation, your nervous system is already on high alert. That’s why:
You jump at sounds.
You can’t sit still, or you feel frozen.
You forget things.
You feel disconnected from your body—or your baby.
This isn’t "just stress." This is your body doing its best to keep you alive. It’s survival, not weakness.
My Story: I Called It Anxiety for Years
I spent years describing what I felt as anxiety. That’s what I was told. That’s the only word I had. But something didn’t line up. I wasn’t just worried—I was panicked, numb, detached. I didn’t feel like me. Until one day, a therapist said the words "birth trauma," and everything clicked.
That reframe? It changed everything. I stopped trying to fix the wrong thing. I stopped blaming myself. And I started healing.
Why We Don’t Call It Trauma
Society doesn’t want us to name trauma. It wants us to smile with our babies and say, “Motherhood is hard, but worth it!” It gives us sanitized language—"overwhelmed," "adjustment difficulties"—and silences the rest.
If you’ve never heard the term postpartum PTSD, that’s not your fault. That’s a reflection of a system that doesn’t center mothers.
Postpartum PTSD vs. PPD vs. PPA
Yes, the overlap is real. Many people have symptoms of more than one. But here are a few key traits of postpartum PTSD:
Re-experiencing: Flashbacks, intrusive memories, nightmares.
Avoidance: Skipping appointments, avoiding baby-related places.
Hyperarousal: Insomnia, jumpiness, constant alertness.
It’s not your job to diagnose yourself. But it is okay to notice that anxiety or depression alone doesn’t fully capture what you’re feeling.
Trauma Lives in the Body
Digestive issues. Chest tightness. Tingling hands. Constant exhaustion. These aren’t just "new mom problems." These are your body trying to process an experience it hasn’t made sense of yet.
And sometimes, talking about it isn’t enough. That’s why body-based healing (like EMDR, somatic therapy, yoga, and breathwork) can be powerful additions to the journey.
Misdiagnosis = Shame Spiral
If you’ve ever thought, “Why can’t I just be grateful?” or “What’s wrong with me?”—you’re not alone. Being told it’s anxiety when it’s actually trauma can make you feel broken.
You’re not broken. You’re responding perfectly to an experience that left you unprotected, unseen, or afraid. You’re not overreacting. You’re adapting.
Hypervigilance Isn’t a Quirk
You check if the baby’s breathing 20 times a night. You snap at your partner when they load the dishwasher wrong. You need to know every detail before you leave the house.
This isn’t about control. This is about safety. And your nervous system is doing what it learned to do: protect you.
The Guilt of “I Should Be Happy”
You got the birth you hoped for. Or the baby is healthy. Or your partner is supportive. And yet…you feel hollow, scared, angry.
Trauma doesn’t care about the "but everything turned out okay" part. It cares about the part of you that was overwhelmed, dismissed, or violated.
Let’s Normalize the Gray
You can love your baby and hate what happened. You can be grateful and still feel grief. You can bond later. You can take your time.
There’s no deadline on healing. No timeline for connection. Just the truth of what’s happening in your body, in your story.
FAQs
How do I know if it’s postpartum trauma? If you’re re-experiencing events, avoiding reminders, or constantly on edge, those are red flags. Talk to a trauma-informed provider.
Can trauma happen even if my birth was "normal"? Yes. Trauma is about perception. If it felt scary, helpless, or violating to you—that counts.
What if I don’t remember anything traumatic? That’s okay. Dissociation is common. Your body may remember even if your mind doesn’t.
Can trauma affect bonding? Absolutely. But bonding is a relationship that can grow over time. It’s not all-or-nothing.
Do I have to go to therapy to heal? Nope. Therapy can help, but healing can also come through education, peer support, community, and somatic practices.
How do I get my partner to understand? Share this. Or tell them what’s true for you. You don’t have to explain everything—just ask them to witness you.
You’re Not Broken. You’re Becoming.
If you’re here, it’s because something in your body knew this wasn’t "just anxiety." It knew something wasn’t sitting right. That matters.
This space exists because naming things can change everything. Because your experience is real. And because healing is possible.